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Yes, Virginia, You Can Leave It In God’s Hands

No, God is not asleep.

No, Nothing is hidden from Him.


Yes, God is just.

Yes, He knows everything.

Yes, He will repay.

Yes, He will work things out for Your good.

Yes, You can leave everything in God’s hands.

Your job?  Be faithful to God.

they will not go unpunished

Goodbye God’s Enemies!


Just remembered the awesome way God fought the battle for Jehoshaphat. Three armies were coming against him. Remarkable how he fought the spiritual battle! More amazing how God made the opposing armies annihilate one another! Yippee!! Bye bye enemies of God! Victory is God’s! Woohoo!!! You’re not going to be the first to get away with treachery!!! Story below from 2Chronicles 20… (Don’t miss Ron Kenoly’s song. Please click the link below.)

Originally posted on Butterfly in the Spring:

Dear Sister,

If you are feeling defeated today, pray these verses into your heart:

*I am more than a conqueror through him who loved me (Rom 8:37).   *For the LORD my God is the one who goes with me to fight for me against my enemies to give me victory (Deut 20:4). * For the eyes of the LORD range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to him (2 Chron 16:9a) * If God is for me, who can be against me (Rom 8:31b)? * This is what the LORD says to me: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not mine, but God’s (2 Chron 20:15b). * No weapon forged against me will prevail, and I will refute every tongue that accuses me. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and this is my vindication from the LORD (Isa 54:17).

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God of the Angel Armies

Ed Cash’s wife had been waking him up in the middle of the night from anxiety and fear attacks. She asked her husband to pray for her and soon after, Ed wrote the lyrics for the song “Whom Shall I Fear?” as a praise to God through the night.  He didn’t know where the lyrics came from but he started praying the lyrics and thought of musician Chris Tomlin to sing it.

In another town, Chris Tomlin had an urging to meet up with him Ed since they hadn’t worked on any music for a while so Chris sent Ed a message that he wanted to meet up when he visited Nashville.  Chris Tomlin says “It was the Holy Spirit nudging me.”  And when the two met up, Chris knew he wanted to sing this song. He said, “There’s something powerful about praying to God and praising Him during the night. When things are coming against you, prayer is the answer.”

It was based on 2 Kings 6:15-18: And when the servant of the man of God arose early and went out, there was an army, surrounding the city with horses and chariots. And his servant said to him, “Alas, my master! What shall we do?” So he answered, “Do not fear, for those who are with us are more than those who are with them.” And Elisha prayed, and said, “Lord, I pray, open his eyes that he may see.” Then the Lord opened the eyes of the young man, and he saw. And behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. So when the Syrians came down to him, Elisha prayed to the Lord, and said, “Strike this people, I pray, with blindness.” And He struck them with blindness according to the word of Elisha.

Excerpts from Chris Tomlin Interview:

Our story is not a story of fear, it is a story of faith. Everywhere you turn it is fear.  Fear is no respecter of age, socio-economic status, or anything. It is a condition of the heart. I just think it is good to have this Truth in our hearts. Whom shall I fear? In the midst of crisis or anything that comes against, it is powerful to know Who stands behind and goes before us. The God of Angel Armies is always by our side.  Most of the time our eyes are focused on what’s in front of us. If we could see the spiritual realm, our enemy wouldn’t cause us fear. 


You hear me when I call
You are my morning song
Though darkness fills the night
It cannot hide the light

Whom shall I fear

You crush the enemy
Underneath my feet
You are my Sword and Shield
Though trouble lingers still

Whom shall I fear

I know Who goes before me
I know Who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always on my side
The One who reigns forever
He is a Friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

My strength is in Your name
For You alone can save
You will deliver me
Yours is the victory

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in Your hands
I’m holding onto Your promises
You are faithful
You are faithful
You are faithful

I know Who goes before me
I know Who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always on my side
The One who reigns forever
He is a Friend of mine
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side

The God of angel armies is always by my side

 The Story Behind “Whom Shall I Fear? (God of the Angel Armies)




God Uses The Broken

In Matthew 14, there were five thousand people who needed to be fed.

The disciples’ idea:  Rely on Man

Send the crowds away, so they can go to the villages and buy themselves some food.

Jesus’s idea:  He can work beyond your limitations.

“They do not need to go away. You give them something to eat.”

Isaiah 55:8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. 9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts”

Before the Miracle:

Knowing that what was needed was not possible humanly:

17 “We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered. 

Give what you have to the Lord.  Even though you think it’s too little.

18 “Bring them here to me,” he said.

Do as He tells you.  (Some who were listening might have been proud and did not follow.  Those who experienced the miracle were those who humbled themselves in their need and waited on the Lord.)

19a And he directed the people to sit down on the grass.

The Miracle:

Jesus looked up to heaven and gave thanks for something that was not enough.  What Ann Voskamp pointed out as “Eucharisteo”,  a Greek word meaning thanksgiving, to be thankful.  Envelopes the Greek root word charis meaning grace, and the derivative chara which is Greek for joy.  In giving thanks for what is already there, what is already given.  Even when it looks measly, ugly.  Perhaps even if it looks like anything but a blessing.

19b Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks

The loaves had to be broken in order to be shared.  What was broken became the provision.

19c and broke the loaves. 

Has something been broken in your life?  Do you feel a brokenness? God can work it for good.

Jesus began to give the broken loaves to His servants who in turn shared them with the people.

19d Then he gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the people. 

The provision was enough, even producing leftovers, twelve basketfuls, one for each disciple to remember what Jesus can do.

20 They all ate and were satisfied, and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces that were left over.

The channel of blessing was the little boy who was not even counted among the five thousand. Five thousand only counted for the men.

21 The number of those who ate was about five thousand men, besides women and children.

Sometimes you think you don’t count.  “Little, insignificant, broken, imperfect” are the starting point for the Lord to work.  When you give it to Him, He can work it for good.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for Edith who shared fresh insights into these passages. Please reveal to me what are the ways I limit you by relying on myself or other people for my need.  I acknowledge my need.  I acknowledge I can’t do this without You.  Help me to recognise that Your ways are different and higher than mine.  Give me Your wisdom to know what it is You want for my life.  Give me a revelation of what it is I already have that I can give to You whether it is a talent, a possession, anything that I am holding on to.  Help me to surrender it to You.  For Your glory.  Please help me to listen for Your voice and to obey You when I hear You.  Please help me to be thankful for what You have already given me.  Remind me that giving thanks gives way to Your miracle.  Your grace is sufficient for me and Your power is made perfect in my weakness.  You use what is broken. Thank You that in my brokenness, You can use me. For Your glory.  Thank You that You do not waste anything. All my pain and suffering, You will work out for good.

When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, “Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted.”
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You Are The Reason For Christmas

The first word that might come to mind after “Christmas”:  “merry”.  Christmas is associated with magical holiday settings, gastronomic festivities, gorgeous “perfect gifts”, love-and-laughter-filled family dinners.  But it’s also a time when people’s sorrow could be heightened when circumstances fall short of the world’s Christmas projected images.

Bites of Reality… my classmate’s wife just passed away from cancer a few days ago, a friend her mother the other day, a couple is still struggling with grief from the loss of their son last year.  A dear person is sick right now on the first day of her Christmas vacation.  A wrong decision has set my employee’s sister’s life into a downward turn. My friend is halfway through a divorce. A father of four lost his job.  Some people lost their homes in the last storm.

If you are one of those who are experiencing pain or loss this Christmas, I would like to encourage you that Christmas is for you.  Christ is for you.  He knows and is compassionate for your pain, suffering, and anguish. Contrary to today’s connotations of Christmas, Jesus’s birth was far from glamorous, festive, abundant.  There wasn’t even room at the inn after all that last-trimester primitive 120 km-or-so travel from Nazareth to Bethlehem sans a GPS. His birth was in a smelly animal stable, and Herod wanted to kill Him. He lived the simple life of a carpenter’s son. His suffering before His humiliating criminal’s death on a cross was excruciating,  it caused Him so much anguish that His sweat was like blood.  His life was His gift.

Jesus today is no helpless baby-on-hay to decorate a side table nor a scrawny body on a cross.  He died. He rose again.  He is alive.  He now sits far above all rule and authority.  The power God exerted to raise Jesus from the dead is the same power for you who believe.

No matter what your passing circumstance is today, may you be strengthened from within and know that the God of Hope loves you, knows you, and is available to you.  Jesus is the Good Shepherd in whom you will lack nothing.  He will make you lie down in green pastures, provide for you, refresh your soul.  Even though you walk through the darkest valley, you will fear no evil for He is with you.  He will comfort you.

Jesus came to die for you.  You are the reason that He came to give His life.  So that you may live.  Abundantly.

Eph 1:18 I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened 

in order that you may know

the hope to which he has called you,

the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people,

19 and his incomparably great power for us who believe.

That power is the same as the mighty strength 

20 he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead 

and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, 

21 far above all rule and authority, power and dominion,and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Who Can I Run To?

I really liked the 80’s song by Whitney Houston,”Run to You”. It was melodious and romantic.  Had I known God’s Word then, the part that says:

Psalm 146:3-4 (NIV)
3 Do not put your trust in princes,
    in human beings, who cannot save.
4 When their spirit departs, they return to the ground;
    on that very day their plans come to nothing.


Jer 17: 5 (NIV) This is what the Lord says:

“Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
    who draws strength from mere flesh
    and whose heart turns away from the Lord.
6 That person will be like a bush in the wastelands;
    they will not see prosperity when it comes.
They will dwell in the parched places of the desert,
    in a salt land where no one lives.
7 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
    whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water
    that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
    its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
    and never fails to bear fruit.

I would have known earlier in life to invest myself heavily in Him first of all.  I mean would you invest in a company called Starbux? It almost sounds like a great investment.  But when you take the time to read, you would be able to discern that it shouldn’t be a pursuit.  Same with God’s Word.  If you don’t read you might get a preying instead of a praying woman.  Or when you’re just singing along to songs, you might think the things of God are refuse instead of refuge…  Almost Truth is not the same as Truth.

Whitney’s song has a namesake by Darlene Zschech.  It was in a CD my friend, Emy gave me a while back but I only discovered the song, “I Will Run To You” in 2011 during the lowest point of my life.  I loved the lyrics and melody so much I must have played the song a few hundred times since.

The song speaks to me of God’s care. It is a reminder to not worry.  His steady, reliable hand of comfort is a source of strength.  There is a plea to let His mercy and strength manifest as intimately and as broadly as it needs to.  Sometimes I felt like I needed a world-sized volume of strength and mercy both coming to me in the depth of my heart where there was a black hole of pain… as well as going out to people I would need to be merciful to.

The reminder of being called to God’s purpose was a grounding weight to keep me centred on my reason for being, staying, and believing.

Sometimes, life is incomprehensible.   But in the realm of God, angels understand.  The “drawing of all men” (including me that I don’t turn away from Him during trial, including people who are so far from Him that they would do vicious things) for His glory reminds me that He will glorify Himself, that it is His desire more than mine that no one perish and that everyone come to repentance.  And when I ask anything according to His will, it’s already an answered prayer.  So I can wait for Him.

The refrain to go back to again and again is Him as the One to run to. Not anyone or anything else.   The word “will” is an advanced decision to run to Him regardless of feeling.  The anchor to keep me from drifting and getting tossed around are His words of truth.  Victory is by His Spirit.  A choice is being made that no matter how hard it is to follow, continue on running the race, persevere during trial until seeing Him face to face.  And to be able to do that amidst  life’s greatest trial would be only by His grace.

The recognition of the spiritual warfare (that the battle is not against people but principalities) was key in fighting the battle not in the flesh but in The Spirit.

Dear Lord, Thank you for using this song to heal me progressively.  I believe I am healed today by Your grace.  Please help me to remain healed in Your name amen.

I WILL RUN TO YOU by Darlene Zschech

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory may you draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes, I will run the race
Till I see Your face
Oh, let me live in the glory of Your grace

More lyrics http://www.allthelyrics.com/lyrics/darlene_zschech/i_will_run_to_you-lyrics-202991.html#ixzz3LOQQEliq

Only To Steal, Kill, and Destroy

It was only when Kuh Ledesma pointed out the word “Only” in John 10:10 that I noticed it was there.

John 10:10a The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy

The traps set for us by Satan have the sole purpose of stealing, killing, and destroying.  When I think Satan has any good purpose, any other purpose than to destroy, that’s when I reconsider entertaining those temptations… when I try to assess what possible benefits the baits have, when I work my way towards justifying what’s in the trap.



When I trust in self or am unaware, lingering longer than necessary as espiritus ignoramus deadmeatus that’s when I am likely to walk into Satan’s booby traps that are meant to take me captive to do his will.

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Lord, please sharpen my discernment of Your will.  Please help me to know what is from You and what is not from You.  Please protect me from enemy traps and snares.  Guard my eyes and my heart that I may not linger in enemy territory. Please help me to flee from temptations and run for spiritual cover.  Help me to be transparent and bring everything to the light. Help me to sense that wanting to hide something could be a sign that I am not confident when something is not of You.  Give me Your Spirit that I may be aligned with Your will and walk in step with You as a child of light and truth, not darkness and lies. I ask these in Jesus’s name and for His glory amen.

Money Matters- Ptr. Joby Soriano, CCF Alabang Nov. 15, 2014

My usually serene friend, Steph, humorously described to me an ad for the Money Matters seminar.  It was an actor’s son and a director’s father who starred as a nunchuk-wielding protagonist:

I got such a kick out of Steph’s description that I looked up the ad…then acted it out for my friend, Edith.  I made Edith giggle so much that she agreed to come.  By God’s grace, neither Edith nor I have starved but we both thought it would be a good opportunity for us to gain insight because sometimes women come to us for counsel regarding money matters.  Little did we know that we would be the ones so blessed.


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Pastor Joby and Cindy wove their personal experiences of past foolish choices which led to gaining wisdom and blessing when they used God’s principles on money.

Money is not the root of evil.  Love of money is.  

The most important take-home for me: God is Controller, Owner, and Provider.  Sounds simple.  Yet such a broad impact so liberating.

After a huge typhoon very quickly flooded the first floor of their house in Magallanes, ruining almost everything including their vehicle, the young Soriano family had no immediate refuge to go to.  Their very young daughter happened to sit on their swing so sadly. The neighbour happened to see her and asked why she was so sad. She said, “We have no more home.”  The neighbour, single brothers, who didn’t know the Sorianos prior were so moved that they asked their mother if they could move out of that house so that the almost-homeless family next door could move in.  Those many, many God-orchestrated incidents, along with the story of The Two Paintings which you should hear, are examples of how God provides for His children.

Speaking from his own experience with finance-driven depression, betrayal, feeling used and abused, struggle with uncertain future, sulking, anger, bitterness, and blame towards God, Pastor Joby and Cindy remembered what they learned…. Who’s The Owner of everything? Who’s The Controller of everything? Who’s The Provider of all our needs?  “God, Joby, God,” (Pastor reminded himself).  They asked for wisdom on what to do next.  God gave them wisdom on putting up a small business with the little money they had left.   The company grew so huge that Pastor Joby earned more money doing that business than he would have earned being president of the company that fired him wrongfully.  And he got the bonus of his kids finally seeing him around for a change because he had more free time.

His encouragement for those still in struggle:

Friends I don’t know the depth of your debt, of your struggle, crisis, marriage but God knows.  This is where you have to say, “Lord, I’m struggling but I know that You are greater than my problems and I’m gonna give it to You.”  Seek His wisdom. Seriously get your heart right with God.  You’ll find that direction that will put you on the right path… I pray God would take the lessons we learned here to our hearts and truly make these come alive.  Help us, Father to apply each of these rules one by one in our lives that we can complete them and live according to Your perfect design. For those who are struggling, for those who are hurting deep down inside with so many financial issues, would You give them peace, rest, and assurance that it is not over… that the answers to their desires and questions are yet to be given to them.  May they never give up.  May you hold on to the Lord and seek counsel. Brother/sister I know that God has a wonderful plan for your life.  Lord, would You continuously pour Your favour and blessing upon them with Your wisdom and knowledge.  We commit their lives to You in Jesus’s name amen.

The next time this seminar is offered, try and attend it!  Why? Because to God,  stewardship of money matters.

P.S. Brilliant ad, Jake Soriano!

Praise Pause: God You Are My God

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Katherine “Kata” Inocencio Part 3 : A Private Loving Message For Wives and Mistresses

Part of God’s story in the life of Kata Inocencio is that she once became a mistress.  She has since come to know the Lord, accepted Jesus as her Savior AND made Jesus The Lord (a.k.a. Master) of her life.  She gave up that wrong relationship.  She went through public discipline in her church, confessed her sin publicly and the pastor (the late Pastor Luis Pantoja) explained that her confession came with the forgiveness of her sins by Jesus Christ.  Subsequently, that sin would no longer be held against her (with the implicit understanding that neither should that sin be gossiped about lest the gossipers be held accountable to God.)

Kata Inocencio shares this part of her life willingly with the hope that it will be an encouragement for wives who are struggling with forgiveness and obedience issues resulting from the hurt that comes from betrayal from their husbands.  Kata’s story is also an encouragement for mistresses that God is real,  that God is a Promise Keeper, that when they make a choice to obey God, He will bless them (just as the choice to remain in sin comes with the curses that come with disobedience).

BUTTERFLYINTHESPRING (BITS):  That was a hard decision for you to give up a relationship which was important to you (even if it was wrong). How did your decision to cut off the relationship outweigh whatever else you were holding on to like powerful feelings, for example?
Kata Inocencio (KI):  Of course there were fears because we have children or at least one son at the time.  I had a job at the time.  I also knew that I can support myself and my son. Although he continued supporting din naman (too). When I look in the physical sense, kaya naman (it is feasible).

The promise of God, the hope of fulfillment of that promise. The hope of a fulfilling life, the hope of my welfare being in the hands of God far outweighed any fear or any emotional attachment to anybody at that time.

It was a series:  [Feeling] downcast, second class citizen, not valued as opposed to reading His Word, reading God’s promises. Mas gusto ko yatang pumunta doon a kaysa pinagdaraanan ko ngayon (I think I prefer to go towards God there instead of what I’m going through right now)  and I think the final straw was God was the author of life and death. He can give life and He can also institute death.

Fear of God absolutely came upon me. I know the touch of God e now. Papaluin ka nya to get your attention tapos sabay hagod. Bubuhusan ka ng love. Pag condemn condemn, hindi si God yan; enemy yan). (He will discipline you to get your attention and then He will stroke you simultaneously.  If it’s all condemnation, that’s not God;  that’s Satan).  Parang yung (Like the) adulteress:  He made you realize your mistake, parang (like the) woman at the well, made you realize your mistake but sin no more. I’ve forgiven you. I do not condemn you. Mas lalong natatauhan ang tao sa ganon (It’s more conducive for a person to repent that way).  I mean it’s hard to turn away from that kind of relationship [with God]… one who lovingly corrects you, rebukes you, but who immediately pours out His love and forgiveness, new hope for you.

(BITS):  Were there specific people who were instrumental for you to come to a full surrender?
(KI):  Oh definitely.   The Lord used many. Many people, many churches, GCF was one of them, Campus Crusade, 700 Club but surrendering to the Lord was just the Lord and I. But siempre, may pinlant siya. (of course, He planted some people).  My discipler, Orpah Marasigan, Coney Reyes was also a very good friend who ministered to me. I have my best friend also, Chit Guerrero of ABS-CBN, because we walk together. Maraming nag-support. (A lot of people were there to support). The Lord sends people.

BITS:  If today you met a woman who is a mistress, what would be your message for her?
KI:  Nene, hindi yan para sa ‘yo. (Young lass, that’s not for you).  Don’t share.   It’s not for you. Do not grab. Do not steal. There’s something that’s for you. Maybe not equal but maybe even more in terms of joy and significance. If I had continued in that relationship. (Not only was he married that’s why we couldn’t marry. Stifling din (too). There were many opportunities in ABS CBN that I passed up kasi (because) he was jealous also. Tago e secret love affair e kaya kailangan i-secret ka rin.  (You see, it’s hidden; its a secret love affair that’s why you have to be kept secret, too).  I don’t know where I am, I might have killed myself out of desperation, I don’t know. On hindsight, even though there is no man in my life right now and the Lord taking me to where I am right now, I will not exchange it… Babalikan ko ba yon? Hindi e  (Will I return to that? No)… “My [God’s] grace is sufficient for you.” Maybe not humanly possible but by the grace of God…

I will tell an Other Woman that she deserves more. You’re not a second class citizen because you are the Lord’s BE-loved. Even before you were born, the Lord already loved you. And it’s a constant state of being loved by God. Same thing that I heard and believed in. Jeremiah 29:11 The Lord has a wonderful plan for your life for your welfare, for your good future. If you have children, even for your children. And it’s not to harm you.

If right now you might feel secure but for how long? And be honest, are you really secure?

Pag namatay na yang kinakasama mo, ikaw ba ang maglilibing sa kanya? Chances are hindi. May mana ka ba? Chances are wala. (When that person you are with now dies, are you going to be the one to bury him? Chances are… no.  When he dies, will you have an inheritance?  Chances are… none.) Why wait for that when you can start fixing your life now? And the Lord is gonna be your help. And I’ll go back to my story. It was hard. I have three children. Logic dictates I should be with their father and they should be with their father. That’s logic. This is illogical. But this is what’s moral, right, and this is what’s best.

Malu: What tips would you give for a woman who wants to get out of being a mistress?
KI:  Be financially independent.

Find a job if you don’t have a job. That’s why financial security is important.

Physically you have to make a boundary. Either he get out or you get out.

You cut off visiting rights. If you have children, let him pick up his children so he can see his children. Avoid a temptation situation. Do not pretend to be a family.  It only takes one [sexual encounter] to get pregnant. Same way as it takes one to get a venereal disease. If no children, cut off totally.  Avoid.

There has to be an accountability group.  In any sin situation, you have to have an accountability group.  There are blind sides.  These people see.  You have to trust people to tell you the truth in love even if it hurts but love you enough to tell you the truth.

On the practical side if you trust God,  He will make a way,  give you the job, help you avoid and cut off the relationship.

BITS:  In your case you were genuinely repentant. It was your own conviction that you have to cut this by hook or by crook. But for those mistresses who are enjoying the benefit of this relationship. How can someone minister to such a person?
KI:  What do they want in life.  Do they want jewelry?

BITS:  For example, bags, a reversible Hermes belt, food trips for photos to post online?

If they want that, they can have that but they don’t have peace, security, and future because how will their life end. And worse where will you end after this life.  Yun lang ang gauge ko (That’s my only gauge).

BITS:  Pag walang (If there’s no) perspective of eternity…
KI:  Wala talaga (really none). We live in the now… pleasures of the day if that’s what you want.  If that’s what you want, that’s what you get.

There are consequences to everything.  In the same way  that there is a consequence… a reward or blessing if you do the right thing.  Deuteronomy 28.  You choose for yourself today blessings or curses. If you fully obey and carefully follow all of these, then you have the blessings.  

Or you can also choose this.  Bahala ka, gusto mo dyan? Dyan ka. Mamili ka.  (It’s up to you, you want it there? Choose that.) It’s a choice.  Hwag mo sabihing hindi mo alam. Posibleng hindi mo alam, in fairness.  Pero ipapaalam ko sa yo gusto mo bang malaman. Ngayon na alam mo na, angong gusto mo?  (Don’t tell me you don’t know. It’s possible you didn’t know.  But now I’m letting you know, do you want to know?  Now that you know, what do you want?)

BITS:  What would be a motivation for a person to turn from sin today?
KI:  Do you want to wait ’til the last minute? But you don’t know when your last minute is so that’s the problem with that. They’ll say, “I’ll enjoy first, I’ll repent tomorrow.”

BITS:  “I’ll go first around the world and then I’ll repent.”
KI:  Oo (Yes), I’ll have him build me a house first, buy me this car, and then take that trip with him that he promised, and then after that I will split with him, hindi mo alam if tomorrow babagsak yung eroplano nyo, patay kayo pareho. Magkasama nga kayo, hindi ko alam kung saan.  (You don’t know if tomorrow your airplane will crash and you’re both dead.  You are together, I don’t know where that will be).

For me those are the warnings, you don’t know when your last minute is.  I’m not the author of life and death, but the Lord is. Jesus promised not just eternal life; He also promised abundant life. SO if your definition of abundance is a-bundat and all of those things [gesturing material things], then I’m so sad for you that that’s your measure because when we die, we leave all of those and all of those will rot here on earth even the money will rot on earth. If that is where you put your value on, how about the after-life? What do you know about it? Why wait for the after-life when you can actually experience the abundant life here on earth today. I’m saying this because I experience God here on earth today. I have a personal relationship with Him. This is Big Deal for me because this is THE GOD of the Universe. His eyes are on me, His heart is with mine, His hand is upon me. My life is in His hands and He calls me… “Mine”. And I call Him… “Mine”! The God of the Universe is… MINE.  Beloved.  Here’s my wedding ring. [Reading her ring inscription]  “I am my Beloved’s and my Beloved is mine.” God is mine. What wealth can compare?

Ano yung value ng isang tao. Anong value ng isang bahay pwedeng masunog, marimata, masira ng earthquake, wala na yan.   What’s the value of one person? What’s the value of one house… (it can burn down, get foreclosed… ruined by earthquake, it will be gone.)  God is there for all time before, today, and tomorrow.  After this life He’s still there waiting for me. He’s gonna dance with me. He’s gonna build me a mansion in heaven.  When He rules and reigns for one thousand years, He’s gonna give me a job. We have a job when He rules and reigns. I want that job that He has for me, the one where I will sit beside Him… I can talk to Him face to face. What I do here on earth is just a practice for tomorrow. Today is just a period. Tomorrow is [gesturing circle infinitely] an eternal line. Do you want to live here in “abundance” in this period or in abundance [repeating gesture of circle infinitely]. Ay do’n na lang ako sa malayo yung marinating.  (I would prefer that which reaches far).  And that’s what He promised. And for me, He has proven it.

Do I have a husband? I don’t have a husband now. Do I desire a husband? Yes. What if God doesn’t give me a husband? I’ve already had a “husband” and three children thank you very much. If He decides to give me a husband, well and good. But this time, I would like God to choose the husband for me in the same way that He has been the one who has been choosing the jobs for me. If He can choose a job for me, I’m sure He can choose a husband for me also but this time, His intended best for me. Ayoko na ng (I no longer want what’s)… not even good enough e.  I can not even say second best. Not good enough. Not good enough to marry you.

Not good enough to make a decent woman out of you.

BITS:  What message do you have for wives?
KI:  I think they should pray for their husbands.

They should continue being loving and lovely, and still be the better choice.

God can actually change the hearts of people. Mahirap lalo na kung galit ka (It’s hard especially if you’re angry).  But if they stay with their husbands, they have to be the best version of themselves. They should continue finding themselves, completing themselves, because another person will never complete you. That’s a wrong concept “Ah [motioning almost fainting]: “You complete me, I will complete you.”  Cannot be. Doesn’t work.

The wife should complete herself in Christ. Apart from Him, you can do nothing and be nothing.  Hindi pwedeng mawala sa equation (Christ can not be removed from the equation). The wife has to find Christ and submit to Christ and be the person that God intended for her to be in the presence or absence of her husband. It’s important for her to forgive her husband because he doesn’t know what he did. Also pray to be able to forgive from the heart. For as long as na-o-offend pa nya ako, hindi ko pa siguro sya napatawad.   Then hayaan mo si Lord sa kanya. 

(As long as I still get offended, maybe I haven’t forgiven.  Let God deal with that person).  By your own obedience, you deal with the disobedient. So when you do the right thing, you give God permission to deal with the disobedient. As long as you hold on to it because of bitterness, hindi maaayos ni Lord yan (God cannot fix that). So if I release it, “Lord I’m sorry that I am angry, I held to my anger and unforgiveness. I release this person. I do good to him. Bahala Ka (Lord), kayong dalawa na. Tapos na ako sa kanya, kayo na lang.” (You’re in charge, Lord, it’s now the two of you. I’m done with that person.  It’s you between You and this person now).  Decide to do the person good.

Part 1: Declared Pure and Innocent

Part 2:  God’s Word as Guide

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