I used to think that everyone is a friend, some of whom I just haven’t met. But after my three year encounter with a particular woman, I had a need to know that women weren’t just like Lotso, the cute and cuddly evil bear. (This was before my joints and marrow better understood Spiritual Warfare)
Checking FB for messages from my niece I’m supposed to meet up with, I chanced upon a photo of this particular woman who caused an immeasurable grief in my life that almost took away my faith in God and has suspended my son’s.
I thought I was over this. But my initial unguarded thoughts were an unsolicited resurrection of the viciousness of betrayal, deception, repeated deception, treachery all delivered in a soft-spoken, cute way. Before the heat from the back of my neck initialised from anger, God mercifully took hold of me and by His grace alone, He washed my heart. The Holy Spirit reminded me that if I say I love God but hate my brother, I am a liar.
On hyper fast forward, the insights I had been getting this week came back to my mind… I had just watched “God’s Not Dead” with my small group last Monday and I remembered the character of Dean Cain mocking his mother saying something like, “You prayed all your life and here you are (suffering dementia in an assisted living center). I am the meanest person and I am having a great life.” The mother in one of her rare lucid moments replied something like “Satan made your jail cell of sin so comfortable so you wouldn’t feel the need to get out. But one day the doors will shut.” Following God is not in vain. Rebelling from God has its consequence.
That FB-peeking time, I was taking a break from transcribing my interview of a mature Christian. Here is an excerpt of what I had already typed:
“Pray to be able to forgive from the heart. For as long as na-o-offend pa nya ako, hindi ko pa siguro say napatawad. Then hayaan mo si Lord sa kanya. By your own obedience, you deal with the disobedient. So when you do the right thing, you give God permission to deal with the disobedient. As long as you hold on to it because of bitterness, hindi maaayos ni Lord yan. So if I release it… “Lord I’m sorry that I am angry, I held on to my anger and unforgiveness. I release this person. I do good to him. Bahala Ka (Lord), kayong dalawa na. Tapos na ako sa kanya, kayo na lang.’ Decide to do the person good.”
So while my flesh went downward, God overrode me and pulled me upward. I wrote from His Spirit of blessing, love, and forgiveness. I got shocked after I commented. Yet, I felt a release. I know that obedience to God defeats Satan. I told God, “Lord, I give that to You by faith. You have to help me every day to be steadfast.”
By 5am the next day, I woke up and got led to Romans 12 on Love in Action.
Rom 12:14 (NCV) Wish good for those who harm you; wish them well and do not curse them… 17 If someone does wrong to you, do not pay him back by doing wrong to him. Try to do what everyone thinks is right. 18 Do your best to live in peace with everyone. 19 My friends, do not try to punish others when they wrong you, but wait for God to punish them with his anger. It is written: “I will punish those who do wrong; I will repay them,”[a] says the Lord. 20 But you should do this:
“If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him a drink. Doing this will be like pouring burning coals on his head.”
21 Do not let evil defeat you, but defeat evil by doing good.
I read it in ten translations to understand more this passage. It confirmed that blessing the person who was vicious to me was aligned with God’s will.
Last night, I watched the “An Evening with Francis Chan” event at CCF Tiendesitas. Part of the message was “When you read something in the bible and are convinced that it is to be done, don’t let anyone talk you out of it. The one thing that matters is faith expressing itself in love. His simple prayer at the end was “Lord, by the power of the Holy Spirit, make us Doers of The Word. We’ve talked enough. We’ve listened enough. Make us doers now in Jesus’s name amen.
Still another confirmation. The way to overcome evil is through good. The all-knowing God who has the heart to bless me, who knows the beginning and the end, who IS the beginning and the end is leading me towards healing, freedom, and peace.
Thank You Lord for overriding, guiding me, and giving me Your freedom and peace. Please help me again today and tomorrow. I leave all the results to You in Jesus’s name amen.