I Haven’t Attained It

Finally, my white blouse (which I happened to be wearing) is in Meg Magazine! And DJ (our beloved hundred year old oven) is in it, too!  When I posted the preview photo last month of the fun photoshoot at the shop, friends were drawn to… the blouse! Heehee.

The Meg team is a great, hardworking, inspiring team. But their day got stretched from the domino effect of traffic plus earlier appointments so the interview portion was compressed, the writer had to rush right after.  It’s my fault I talked too much. Too many words to sift through.

So to clarify… my sister, Joy, shared her love for baking with me not when I was in college but when I was a child.

Today, in seeking to be hands on as a small-scale entrepreneur in a restaurant setting, there are sometimes simultaneous, important, urgent goals to be addressed: employ good business practices, seek profitability, aim for highest quality, see to staff, develop and improve systems and standards, implement controls, get customer feedback, innovate, be creative; don’t be princessy but dig in to work. There are daily changes, checks, contracts, complaints and evolving concerns… Whew! Nakaka-swangit ang stress!  But I’m kikay pa! Though parachefing makes me smell like onions, I don’t want to look like onions. 😃 So while I strive for excellence in what I do, I need to breathe and be intentional about finding my center in God through my quiet time with Him daily, recharge on my rest day, and make sure I don’t wear myself out to get rich because God grants sleep to those He loves.  An underlying hierarchy of priorities runs through my mind:  God, husband, children, work, ministries, social.  That’s the guide I imperfectly seek to follow daily.

[During the Meg interview, the bold part got edited out due to space constraints but it puts the proper context:]

Every day, I try to seek that victory to do what God wants me to do.  Where am I? 60%? God knows exactly where I am... 

Eugene Peterson, in his translation of the above verse:

Focused on the Goal
12-14 I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.

This is what I want to say:

I fall short of God’s standard daily.

I see… my natural inclination to be candidly…foolish

… the moments when I should just stamp “Palpak (Failure)” on my forehead

…my need for wisdom and direction

… my glaring need for God.

I haven’t attained that victory but it is my aspiration.

I have the default tendency to go ahead of God, gravitating towards what’s foolish and selfish, then make messes along the way.  So as a slow work-in-progress, whenever I can, I stop and ask God to override me, help me, teach me, guide me.  It doesn’t mean I’m there.  I know for a fact that I’m not.  I still have a long way to go.  But like the apostle Paul, I am trusting that God will complete the good work He began in me, that day by day He makes me new in Christ. His Spirit who knows everything, can do everything is available and with my submission to Him, He is able to use an imperfect, broken person like me because it is precisely through the cracks that His light can shine.

meg 2015 magazine feature
Meg Magazine October 2015 p. 76, “Balancing Acts: Meet 7 Multi-hyphenates Behind Our Favorite Hangouts.” And for those who are interested in the white blouse, it’s from BCBG 🙂

6 Comments Add yours

  1. loren lee says:

    “This is what I want to say:

    I fall short of God’s standard daily.

    I see… my natural inclination to be candidly…foolish

    … the moments when I should just stamp “Palpak (Failure)” on my forehead

    …my need for wisdom and direction

    … my glaring need for God.”

    You couldn’t have expressed this better for me! Often felt that way whenever I make mistakes or bad decisions, yet He has always used them to draw me back to Him.,Reminding us that apart from Him, we are nothing. Thank you for putting this into words! I pray that we continue the race and finish strongly with His might and power:)

    PS: Nice photo of you on Meg magazine, you look so “holy” hehehe 🙂 God bless you, Karen:)

    1. Amen, amen! that we finish strongly with His might and power! Thank you for that beautiful prayer, Loren! I need that!! Thanks! haha I will look holy because the white blouse has many holes! 🙂

      1. loren lee says:

        Hahaha! The ‘Holes’ add life to the blouse and are what makes it pretty 🙂 Love reading your blog! Thank you for writting! 🙂

      2. Haha aw thank you so much dear Loren! Thank you for reading!:)❤️

  2. Tepton Quimbo Bataclan says:

    Hi Karen.
    Read through your blog ..insplring indeed!
    I’m surprised with our connection – m brother , Myla, Lorna – and now Pinky Cuenca – she’s my niece – there’s got to be a reason for all this!
    See u next time – at your Resto !
    Tepton

    1. Dear Tepton so wonderful to meet you and so blessed to know God allows this blog to inspire! Looking forward to seeing you again soon:)

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